Cursing? Oh, that ol’ thing…

How quick are we to curse? Pretty quickly if you ask me. It’s as natural to us as breathing. How quick are we to not notice the words that come out of our mouths? We speak before we think, that’s a given. In today’s society, it has become the norm to speak fouly, to say profanities, and speak negatively. I’m guilty of this myself. I decided to write about this because it came to my attention of how insignificant we might view this. I mean, it’s something so small compared to all the other countless ways we could be doing wrong. But God takes into account all the BIG and SMALL things we do throughout our lives. At work, I notice how easily it is for kids to curse at each other. I hear the young girls referring to each other as “bi*****”. It’s normal for them to say “Hey bi***, how was your weekend?”. When did this ever become the norm? The worst part is, that if you don’t play along to words like that, you’re considered to be boring and a goodie-to-shoes. How sad that the norm to God is the un-norm to society. I wonder if we realize that through our words, we will be judged. I wonder if we realize that through our words, we are creating or destroying our harvest. I say ‘we’ because I’m including myself. As I write here, I am also learning. I am not preaching as if I know everything but instead just simply sharing what was placed in my path. Last night as I read Matthew 12, I came across these verses

“I tell you that people will have to answer on judgement day for every useless word they speak. By your words you will be either judged innocent or condemned as guilty”

Matthew 12:36-37

While I am referring more to cursing, I still believe that spreading rumors or negatively speaking about someone or ourselves could be considered “useless words”. We reap what we sow. The more we curse, the more we create a foul character. The more we speak negatively about others or ourselves, the more we destroy our good nature. I realize how simple of a subject this is and that there are more important things out there to focus on but something as simple as this has the power to create or destroy. It has the power to create our character or destroy our character. Will we have dignity in how we talk? Will we have dignity in how we refer to each other and acknowledge each other? Our words are a gateway to our characters. I know these behaviors have become normal to us so stopping them all together almost seems impossible. At some point throughout the day, our old habits will come out without our approval. We are quick to act and quick to speak. But I believe that if we become aware of this subject, then we will be able to stop ourselves one action and one word at a time.

“Keep your conduct among the Gentiles honorable, so that when they speak against you as evildoers, they may see your good deeds and glorify God in the day of visitation”

 1 Peter 2:12

Have a lovely day everyone, may you honor the one that loves you with your words!


It’s hard being a newbie Christian

In my previous post, I talked about how I grew up in a catholic home. I mentioned how difficult it was to make the transition to Christianity. Over the past few days since I started this blog, a thought has kept creeping up in my mind. “Being a newbie Christian is tough”. I began blogging with the intention of sharing my walk with Christ. I believe it is important to let others like me, know that they aren’t alone in freshly starting off their walk with Jesus. I say this because I know how terrifying it can seem when you look around at so many other Christians that have probably been in ministry for years. They seem so well put together. It’s intimidating and it can make one feel like we won’t ever know as much as them. But I’m here to tell anyone that might, or is currently experiencing these thoughts: YOU ARE NOT ALONE! 

So what difference could we possibly make for the growth of the Harvest?

A big concern of mine has always been on how can I make a difference. What more could I potentially add that someone more experienced hasn’t already done or said. I don’t know about you, but when that thought comes to my head, I can’t help but feel unbelievably small. I go to church, watch Joyce Meyer conferences, and read christian blogs by other devoted christians. I can’t count the number of times I have wished to have the knowledge and courage to preach the word of God as they all have. It is because of people like them, that we come across Jesus’s love. They spread the word by acting as messengers. How awesome is that? God has his own army and we can all join. We can all make a difference. We might come across ONE person, be a blessing to their day, and guess what happens next? Jesus’s love radiates from us, which then radiates onto that person you blessed, which later radiates onto the next person they bless. It is really that simple. It is an ever growing domino effect. Our body is a vessel that carries God’s spirit and our job is to be so filled with his love and grace that we glow with his goodness. 

‘Or don’t you know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you? Don’t you know that you have the Holy Spirit from God, and you don’t belong to yourselves? You have been bought and paid for, so honor God with your body’.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20

This is what I’ve learned….there are so many people out there that need to hear the word of God. It could be family members living in your own house or it could be a complete stranger living across the world from you. We don’t realize how easily we can make a difference to someones day. There might be a bunch of people out there, doing the exact same thing you would like to do right now. They are helping others in ways that you have only imagined to help but we ‘newbie christians’ don’t have to watch from the sidelines. It might be scary because who would possibly listen to us when just the other day we were sinning? But see thats the beauty about God. He forgave us and gave us the grace to overcome our old behaviors. He wants us to show others how he saved us. So yes, you might be new in your walk with Jesus but just remember that at the end of the day, it is all about growing the Harvest.

‘Then he said to his disciples, ‘The size of  the harvest is bigger than you can imagine, but there are few workers. Therefore, plead with the Lord of the harvest to send out workers for his harvest’. 

Matthew 9:37-38

Will you be his worker?

Jesus himself said that there were only a few workers. He wants us to follow him and lead by example. You might feel insignificant compared to all the other more experienced preachers but just remember that we were given the power to help others. Each one of us was placed on this earth with a calling. We are our happiest, most alive, and most like ourselves when we fully activate our calling. If in this moment or in any future moment of your life, you feel a calling to talk about the word, do it! Even us newbies can get in on the action of changing someones life. There is nothing difficult about God, we just need to spread his goodness onto others. So ask yourself “Am I ready to be his worker in this harvest?”


Military Weekends

Once a month, every first weekend of the month.

A man in uniform…can I get an Amen! Whether he is a nurse, or a doctor, or a policeman, or a firefighter (like mine) or in the military, there is something so attractive and honorable about them.When I first started talking to Josh, I was fan-girling left and right because he was a firefighter in the Air Force. I mean, how flipping cool is that? I was super excited to tell my family and friends about him. He had the aspiration to become a civilian firefighter as well so a double win! I was about to start dating such a cool guy that had so much going for him and best of all, he wanted me to be a part of it. I felt like I knew what I was getting myself into but I never really knew what I was getting myself into until I experienced it. In no way is this post meant to be a downer but instead a learning experience. When Josh got back from his deployment, I basically had him all to myself for a whole month. That month consisted of back-to-back movie dates, lunch and dinner dates, arcade dates, and anything else my little heart desired. It was fantastic and it felt like I was on cloud nine, but like anything else in life, everything comes to an end. I now had to share him with school, work, and these military weekends. I know how lame I am going to sound. I’m here complaining about a simple weekend, while there are girlfriends and wives that have to deal with months and years at a time without seeing their significant other. Even though I haven’t had to endure that long of a wait, I feel for all of you that have and I pray for you patients. For anyone that is dating a first responder, you understand how terrible the schedules can be.

I fell hard from Cloud 9.

When it came time to actually deal with the scheduling, let me just say I had a hard time adjusting to it. I have never ever in my life had the mindset of ‘‘absence makes the heart grow founder’, in fact, it has always been the complete opposite for me. As embarrassing as it may be to say this, I had a very selfish attitude with time. I had never faced a situation where I had to place someone else’s priorities over my own. I’m not going to sit here and say that I knocked it out of the ball park after a month of dealing with it because thats definitely not what happened. In fact, my mindset lead to many arguments that were in no way healthy for a new relationship. Thank God, that Josh was beyond understanding and had the patients to actually deal with the immaturity. So two things were happening here: 1). I was thinking of the past and 2). I was thinking of the future. I was worried because of past experiences and believed that if I didn’t have enough time with my significant other, he would stop loving me and leave me. I was worried about the future and what it meant to not spend time together. 1 + 2 = 3….which is as simple as I was making myself into a huge ball of anxiety and worry. All of that for absolutely no reason whatsoever. I am honestly beyond embarrassed that I had this mindset and even more embarrassed that sometimes I still slip and get a selfish attitude. I’m no where near perfect. My selfish attitude is probably one of my biggest downfalls but the very first step I took to changing that is acknowledging it. Yes, you read that right. Acknowledging my attitude. Instead of ignoring the bad traits we all have, I found it helpful to realize them and step out of the comfort zone they have placed us in and make a change for our own good as well as the good for those around us.

Is it easy? Heck no! Here are some things God told me:

I have come to believe that our bad traits have placed us in a sort of comfort zone. For example, anyone out there just despises to apologize? Even if at the end of the day, no matter what way you put it, it is completely your fault? I grew up watching some of my own family members never apologizing for certain actions they took. I believe it to be their pride that never allowed them to see past themselves. They were too scared to shatter their own egos even if it meant being on better terms with the people around them. Ego = your comfort zone. In my case, I was use to being selfish simply because it always got me what I wanted even if it would upset those around me. Terrible, terrible, terrible, I know! But like I said, it was my comfort zone, it was what I knew. Being patient? HA! Putting other’s perspective above my own? Double HA! Getting out of my comfort zone? Triple HA! So I began to pray about it. I asked God to help me with my attitude and allow me to become more humble. I started doing devotional based on humility and worrying and here is what I was told:

“Humble yourselves before the Lord, and He will lift you up” – James 4:10 

“So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” – Matthew 6:34

We alone do not have the power to change ourselves, but by cooperating with the Lord, we can overcome even our worst of habits. So here are the 3 simple steps I took to changing my bad attitude into a more humble and worry-free attitude:

1). Acknowledge it

2). Pray about it

3). Listen to what God has to say about it

Often times the best thing we can do for ourselves and those around us, is to realize our faults and want to make a change about them.